Today is my birthday. I woke up this AM at about the time of my birth (2:32AM) and thought – wow I am a year older today. In some ways I don’t feel any different. But today my resolve has changed. Today I take my life with both hands. Today I embrace my blessings and begin to learn to deal with hardships as a women and not a scared little girl.
Today I think of Strawberry wine (I still remember when 30 seemed old). Is it really my childhood or the loss of innocence that I miss so much.
Today I think of the birth of my first child, of the joy on my husbands face as he held our babe in his arms.
I think of our second and third sons, each one different, each one a gift of god. Oh how my life has been blessed with the men in my life. Three sons and a husband I love with everything I have.
I think back to sliding down the sun burned grassy hills as a kid, with a bit of cardboard under me. Stickers in my sox.
I think back to how sweet a candied apple tasted before my tastes buds were burnt by to much coffee.
I remember, i remember who I was. I remember my accomplishments and mistakes.
But I am no longer afraid of what will come and who I will be. I know my weaknesses and I have found my strength.
I look at the years ahead with hope. I look ahead to a life filled with a love I will never take for granted. I am looking ahead.